kunoichibaka

While my stay at my sister's, I was play 13 with the husband. I told him my plans about "college". What I'm really going to do is audition first and try my luck. I ask if I should go for it if I was given the chance and he said yeah. Once I hit 18, they can't stop me.

He told me the story about his best friend. He's in band and was playing locally and they decided to go beyond locally. His mom encouraged him too. At one point, he thought about it and decided to go to college and get a decent job but still plays locally.

Another was about this Vietnamese singer from here who also wanted to hit big. He was the brother of his friend. The parents didn't like the idea but he moved out anyways and he succeeded. What my brother-in-law doesn't know if the parents finally gave in or not. Eventually, they will have to I said.

After that, I kept losing every game. I suddenly lost focus.

We went back on the same topic and he brought up an interesting point. He said my whole family are entertainers or performers. My dad was in a band; plays the guitar; my mom was tall and pretty back in the day and people would take pictures of her. According to him, she sings good? I thought she likes to sing randomly... My sister was a karaoke freak. She sang every single day non-stop back then. My brother plays the guitar and piano. And finally here I am performing for Asian Night every year and other random performances. He means that we're meant to perform, in a way. I thought this was interesting because I have never thought of this before. He said, and so I thought, why I am trying to audition and keep performing no matter how stressful it is, makes sense.

I thought I can perform randomly and locally... not just OB or BLA. Stunt team, maybe? For the rest of my life in the unknown. Be a pharmacist on the side and play games in the hospital dungeon until called upon. Be a cop at night maybe. It's too much for me to think about. The last thing and my final thoughts was... If I was going to be game developer, then I wouldn't have looked into other things then this wouldn't be a problem.

Well I didn't get anything anyways... I was planning on getting a laptop since my netbook is really crap from Dell. 8GB HD, 1 hour +, 1gb ram... Like seriously!? only 8 GB? I blame my friend for making me getting this even though it was an offer from Lifehacker. My budget for a netbook or laptop is $400 and most of them are over $400.

I was planning on writing an entry yesterday but in the end I felt lazy. In short, I spent the mini-vacation at my sister's place with the whole family. I got stingy with dad, dad yells at me saying to stop seeing him as my enemy, because he is not my enemy. He sure is though... Even my own sister is yelling at me for being rude. Well SORRY for not being friendly at all after keeping a thought about how my life is going to end up ANYWAYS.

Oh I got a warning notice for History... as expected. I gotta do better.

Some people walked by and said good job with the skit and good job with the traditional dance. I swear I did all I could for the dance but I realized some of the others weren't giving them all. I did it for pumpkin pie, man. I told my "mom" that I messed up on the skit but she says she didn't notice and naturally people look how amazing it is than the actual mistakes. I thought this kind of saying is something I should keep in mind...

I slept through the whole period in Japanese. It's the first time I've ever done that... Half asleep in Japanese 1 class too since I wasn't given an correcting to do. I hope it's not because I messed up on anything? Or maybe she didn't give too much work this time... I think.

After school, I passed by the greenhouse and saw that geek in there. He called me ugly through the window. On the way I saw the Math league leader girl. Happy as usual? I asked what she's going to do after school, I thought it was funny that it took her a good minute to figure out what she was planning to do after school even though she could've just said library. She followed me into the greenhouse where the geekaloid was. Then I head-locked the geekaloid and almost threw him into the tub of water nearby since he called me ugly and fat, and all of the above.

My friend, the geek, tells me to play an MMORPG with him but the question was what game? He said World of Warcraft.. I'm like no way dude. Especially when I told my other friend not to play WoW or I won't talk to him ever again. I offered other games, with some FPS in there, it turns out he doesn't like shooting games. Since it's Cyber Monday today, he tells me to go find two copies of an MMORPG and we'll play together as newbies. He said Everquest. I heard of it but as I google more about it it is also known as "Evercrack" and "Neverrest". So is WoW "World of Warcrack"? I might as well not buy it if it's going to get me addicted. In the end, I didn't buy any game so I'm going wait for him to get online and find some game together. I'm thinking Starcraft... Hmm...

I got home later than usual since that same geek dragged me with him. That lonely butt. At least he bought me a latte from Dunkin' Donuts. So free latte, hooray. I told him how my day went on Wednesday since he knows what's going on and he goes I should just dump him but I told him it was my decision to let him go with the others and I went on the train anyways. I also told him he didn't want to go at first but I was a step ahead of him onto the train. He said he should have gone like "No, I'm going with my girl" but again, it's my fault for just letting him go anyways with this very very short notice. After this short conversation ended awkwardly with food and calling me fat once again, I went on the green line home but I stopped before the college my guyfriend goes to. So I called twice and he didn't picked up, so I just continued walking to the train station with some hope of seeing someone I know, especially the math league leader chick. But she wasn't there or nor did anyone I knew was there, so I walked home in the rain.

When I got home, I finally got a call back from him. He asked why I called, since I never almost call, I told him I was in the area. Then our friend was in the background, she says hi and I said hi. He told me that he was sorry for not picking up the phone because he couldn't hear it for some reason. After that she goes "cough cough", then he goes "shut up". He goes sorry again and I said "yeah yeah whatever" then he goes "love y-" then I hanged up right after. Why? I was in the middle of looking for Cyber Monday deals. Plus I wasn't in the mood to deal with anything. Feisty? Well no... it's not like he has time for me anyways so why bother.

Today was Spirit Day and my friend and I was suppose to perform a small martial art skit with BLS vs BLA. Everything was going accordingly until I did a sweep kick on him and he fell on my leg with me staying on the ground longer than usual. Then we improvised and skipped to the end. After wards, we were disappointed at our performance. We were good with the rehearsals but we sucked at the real show. We were also suppose to perform for all three shows however I question the big people about our performances to make them say the 3rd show only. The problem was that my friend was late to school. His alarm didn't go off. That's probably some sign that told us we're not going to do okay.

I had doubts doing the traditional Japanese dance because I was sure that people would be going like what the hell is this. Now, if the majority was Asian, it wouldn't be the case. Last year, there was a traditional Irish dance and the crowd liked it. Well, at least we got the honor of being the first ones to do such a Japanese culturally related thing for Spirit Day... Since it makes sense, we're one of the few schools that has Japanese class and the only school to have JNHS.

Yesterday I was invited to go to the movies with the greenhouse club people today but I couldn't go because I made plans with my guyfriend. I was unsure if he remembers to come or not so I told the guy who invited me the situation, since he knows about it, and we will go from there. He came so I couldn't go with them. We went to OB's pep rally and it was interesting since th emcee was very good, my old 7th grade friend, and they had interaction among sports teams and the audience as well. Dance contests were funny to watch. People in the audience challenge the foot ball players was a good idea too. If people in the audience thinks they're better than the football team, they can come down and go against them. I may used to go to the school but I don't feel at ease wearing BLA clothes while attending the pep rally. I didn't feel any more better seeing a person from BLS in the audience.

We walked to the train station since it was like a block away. My best friend came along with some other friends. Turns out my guyfriend had some unknown plans that he has to attend to. One of our friend's friend sent her a text saying she is meeting my guyfriend along with other friends as planned...? My guyfriend claims he has no idea about this. I have my suspicions about this girl too but I'm just gonna leave things happen for itself. Since they're at the meeting destination already, I just let him go. I didn't care much anyways.. I just knew something was going to ruin our day regardless. Just a feeling. IF he didn't text me about how his first day of college went, then I expect something like this to happen next time.. Honestly, I'm not really up for dating. I don't know why I did so anymore.

Instead, my best friend and I hang out at the mall and ate some food. We played the Infamous demo at the Sony Style store for a good half hour trying to figure out moves and I had to help him be on the lookout for enemies since we were facing a huge TV. We finally beat it though. Talked about things and etc since we haven't seen each other in person for so long. He was also heading off to Canada over the break too.

I wished I went with the others instead because the 10th grader, and her sister I hope haha, really wanted me to go with them. Another kid asked if I got any plans too and then another kid and his friends, who are also my friends.. I wish I can go to all of them since it's my last year and all.

Overall, my day was okay with my messed up leg, Left 4 Dead 2 playing 2 campaigns without getting tired, 3 hour nap, chatting on AIM...

Yesterday two of my friends lost a bet. The bet was whomever has the lowest GPAs of term 1 will have to wear girls' clothing. One of them had to wear girl's underwear which I don't know where that came from and my pants that I lend him. It didn't look like girls' pants when he was wearing though haha.

The song is addicting-ish. The fan dance makes it look more interesting.

There's more I want to say but briefly, if I kept count, this person was around the 7th person to tell me to do what I want. Extensively to the part I should be thinking for myself because I only have one life and it's not being selfish. People who love me will support me in what I do, she says.

Our choreography for the skit has been fixed, for the fourth time. I swear. Do the general audience want realism or cool looking moves? For one thing, I know for sure for asian night it has to be comedy. An excuse for our inexperienced people and our incapability. It's the same for dance covers or someone making their own dance moves. Which one would the audience like to see? It's always the audience.

I saw the MAMA performances, especially 2pm's. I felt depressed after shining the spotlight in the middle where the missing leader is suppose to be. It benefits the people taking advantage of his disappearance. Interviewing Jae, 2pm - 1 = 6, etc. Even their own company, so much hype and always on the news. Except the fans have a number of rights they make use of, like boycotting any JYP related activity.

However, congrats to 2pm for winning Artist of the Year.

Which reminds me. SM artists didn't appear as their agency boycotted them because of unfair voting and such along with other artists. SNSD would've won like come on.. 9 consecutive wins in music shows?? What the heck. It's definitely the agency's loss. The whole DBSK/TVXQ dispute thing is so crazy.

Just slowly informing colleges about the name mix up on my application and school records... I don't care anymore.

...in this order:

- Call School Admission Offices
- Spirit day
- Skit
- Dance with JNHS
- JNHS Newsletter stuff
- Minor Paper 3
- Financial Aid stuff
- BU Essay(Jan)
- Emmanuel College
- Japanese Karaoke Contest
- Music Talent Night
- Square Enix Medley with Juniors
- Utada Concert
- Auditions
- Lin Cosplay
- Scout Cosplay
- Tifa Cosplay
- PAX
- Asian Night
- Anime Boston

I should get off of AIM for this..